Friendship Remains And Never Can End... can't it?

Recently, i was at The Mall Of The Emirates, doing nothing but watching people. Nothing much, but i get to see people walking hand in hand, husband and wife, father and son, boyfriend and girlfriend, Pakistan man and Pakistan man, Arab man to Arab man, and it makes me wonder, people live happily because we all love another soul, love is indeed all around us, but why at this age, I'm still lack of love?

Back in KL, i do have a number of close friends. Friends who i can really rely on. And i do have a best friend, who is closed to me for years and still treat me like a piece of shit. And basically, i did managed to create categories of close friend. Friend who i can rely on when I'm sad. Friend who will help me when I'm in need of ... help. Friend who is satisfaction-guaranteed, enjoy to shower or breaking the glass. Friend who love to ask to to be the shopping companion, the travel partner. Friend who enjoy my style of cooking. Friend who enjoy me. All sort of friend. Well, i do have lotsa friend, maybe because I'm friendly but that doesn't stop some out there think that i'm a jerk.

Most of my close friend, are now married with or without children. So basically, that'll maketh me an uncle. I'm an uncle to Dania and Eddin, the 'product' created by my best friend, Ned and wife and Shida and hubby. Okay, before you are confused, both babies were created at different time and location. I've known Ned since 1994, 1st year in UTM, close to him and his family since then. And Shida, i'm close to her since 1997, met her in person in 1998. Travel to Europe together few years back, laid back on the beach together with her wearing that nice bikini (Okay!Okay! I bet Shida will be wondering, since when we traveled together? Ahaks... well something in blog, is created to spice up the storyline). Anyway, She's now happily married with a baby, The Little Giant, Eddin who gonna be 1 on 28th November 07. We are both shoulder to cry on for each other in times of sorrow. Ned, on the other hand, is my close friend, very close with this guy, i was his best man and close to his family. The bestest friend i used to have was Ija, really close to her, known her way back in 1999 and close to her family too. But now, she has moved on, and stay in Melawati.

Well, bottomline is, i always belief that what goes around will comes around. So, no matter how bad the deed were, i still as much possible, doesn't want to have any ill-feeling towards any living soul. Even the fat pig from Melawati. But if people doesn't want to be my friend for any particular reason, then i can't help much cos i don't think i'm able to make all soul happy. My ex-fiancee doesn't want to be my friend anymore because it's too painful for her. Aleen is a friend to me again, and i respect her, because i walked out on her before.

Truth is, I'm alone and lonely now. What goes around will comes around rite?, well, i know that no matter how hard i've tried to make people happy, i too did hurt people's heart and feeling. Anyhow, I'm now trying very hard to crawl the walk and try to stand tall again. In a month time, I'll add another number to my age and with grey hair appearing every now and then, I'm accepting all this as fate.

Am i depressed? Or stressed out? No one will knows. But I'm learning and preparing to face the new agenda of life, being 31 and single is not that bad. Or being 35 and without a family is okay... Well, at least i can be the coolest uncle of all! Am i rite, Dania? Eddin? Erina? Erica? Danny?

Haaaaa... at least i have you to text me everyday and remind me of good times and happy days.

Soo much of being an AngeL... the burden is killing me now...