Sunday, September 7, 2008

Dizziness of the Winding Road



I when back home yesterday, from a hectic day in office. Suddenly, it hit me, right smack in the middle of my mind, that I'm 32 this year (not exact, but will be soon in a couple of month, before the year end). And I'm here, which I term as nowhere, a place I called, neither here nor there. I think I'm one of the few (or maybe not that few) those who are unlucky. Unlucky to have a family, just yet. But the other kind, the kind who have a family already, term us, the lucky one. Lucky for still being a single. Anyway, as for me, I miss those time coming back to a home, having a kid waiting for me and my partner kissing my lip. Somehow when I speak of them, it sound more imaginary rather than real! But I do used to have kid, a baby Persian mixed Siamese cat, hmm well not so a baby, he was darn big. But manja like a baby.

Anyway, the point here is, at which point in your life, you should settle down? Prior to being 32, I used to think that by 30, I should've been married and starting a family. And most of my single-more-than-30-years-old friend, doesn't seem to care that much bout starting a family, anymore.

Can being a single be term as settling down too?

Well, as much as I wanna agree with all those who gonna say 'Relax, for a guy, your still young' yada yada yada.... Be in our shoe or shoes, then you'll know how young is young.

Will God send me an Angel? I am still hoping for it.

But rest assured, if I'm destined to be single, then I'll be the AngeL.

Just a rant.. I am soo need to have a cuppa latte.

10 comments:

Hyphenated L said...

when you're good and ready.. you'll get there. but first, you need to truly understand the meaning of responsibility, and be up for the challenges that may come..

Ms B said...

We all have a dream of what should we be by the time we reach 30. BUt things change... we just have to adjust our expectations.

They can only guess what's inside our head but only the person who fits the shoes knows best.

Anonymous said...

my friend,it doesn't really matter when is the time dat u wanna settle down.its up 2da individual actually.cud be 22 or 32 years of life..marriage is full of commitments..
make her ur bestest friend,lover n life time partner..
n do cherish ur love everyday..
i'm not an xpert either..
but surely u will knw when u meet the right person,at the rite place n the right time...
cherrios-

AporN said...

Kopi Kampung, Thanx!
Yes i agree, there's no definition of what age is the right age. The right moment will come at the right time. Only God knows.

But one thing i can surely say, after 30's, i became a bit 'malas' to find a partner. Mayb bz with work, or simply fed-up.

Anyway, the show still goes on!

Anonymous said...

hehe well then, gain more girl friends..who knows.. your soulmate is right infront of u :D

Anonymous said...

I'm alone...
Yeah, I don't know if I can face the night...
I'm in tears and the cryin' that I do is for you...
I want your love - Let's break the walls between us...
Don't make it tough - I'll put away my pride...
Enough's enough I've suffered and I've seen the light...

Don't know what I'm gonna do...
About this feeling inside...
Yes it's true - Loneliness took me for a ride...
Without your love - I'm nothing but a beggar...
Without your love - a dog without a bone...
What can I do I'm sleeping in this bed alone...

You're the reason I live
You're the reason I die
You're the reason I give
When I break down and cry
Don't need no reason why

Baby
You're my A-N-G-E-L...
Come and save me tonight...
You're my A-N-G-E-L...
Come and make it all right...

MUAHS! (***hugs***)
;)

DiaHarris said...

ooiittss oiittss... ketiak ku mmg sangat happy masa ittew.. hahhahahaaa....

ala baru 32.. muda lagi ler... ngada tau!!

AporN said...

...and i wonder who's the Anonymous who sent the Angel lyrics. Thanx...

:-( too bad, you're anonymous.

Anonymous said...

anonymous will remains as anonymous..

duai khwam rak lae khit thueng kha
;)

AporN said...

Okay anonymous, i'll respect your decision to remains anonymous.

Khop khun mark thee arn blog phom.